Chapter 6: She Didn't Deny It

I called him back from the car.
*Tell me what she said.*
*She said—* He stopped.
Started again.
*She said she did what was necessary to protect the family.
That you were never the right fit.
That the pregnancy complicated things and she handled it.*
*Handled it.*
*Yes.* His voice was hollow.
*I asked her about the foundation.
The one she set up before our wedding.*
*What did she say?*
*She said it was standard estate planning.
That I was being dramatic.*
*And the relinquishment agreement?*
A pause.
*She said you were given a fair offer and you chose not to sign it.
She said that was your right and she respected it.*
*She brought a lawyer into my hospital room thirty-one hours after emergency surgery,* I said.
*While I was alone.
While you were twenty minutes away and didn't know it.*
*I know.*
*Sebastian—*
*I know, Hannah.* His voice cracked slightly on my name.
*I know.
I've been sitting in my car for two hours because I can't — I don't know how to—* He stopped.
*I have three children I have never met.
I have five years I cannot give back.
And my mother is sitting in her living room telling me I'm being dramatic.*
I didn't say anything.
*I want to see them,* he said.
*I know you said not yet.
I understand why.
But I need you to know that I am asking.
I'm not demanding.
I'm not showing up at your building.
I'm asking.*
*I heard you,* I said.
*Is there anything I can do?
Anything at all?*
I thought about Sophie at the kitchen table.
*He looked scared.
Like when Ethan broke the lamp.*
*There is one thing,* I said.
*Name it.*
*The foundation,* I said.
*The one Eleanor controls.
I need you to understand what it means.
If you die without a recognized heir, your estate goes to a private foundation your mother has controlled since before we were married.
Your children — our children — would receive nothing.
Not because of any law.
Because Eleanor arranged it that way before they existed.*
Silence.
*Get a lawyer,* I said.
*Not your family's lawyer.
Your own.
Someone Eleanor has never met.
And do it before she knows you're doing it.*
*Why are you telling me this?*
*Because they're your children too,* I said.
*And whatever happened between us, they deserve to be protected.*
He was quiet for a long moment.
*Hannah,* he said.
*I'm sorry.
I know that doesn't—*
*Not yet,* I said.
*Do the lawyer first.
Then we'll talk about sorry.*
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Eleanor called me that evening.
I had been expecting Sebastian.
I had not been expecting her.
Her voice was exactly as I remembered it.
Measured.
Unhurried.
The voice of a woman who had never once doubted that the room would eventually come around to her position.
*Hannah.
I think it's time we spoke directly.*
*I agree,* I said.
*Sebastian is upset.
He tends toward the dramatic when he's emotional.
I want you to understand that everything I did was to protect my son and my family's legacy.*
*From what?* I asked.
*From his own children?*
*From a situation that was complicated and emotionally charged and that you were using to—*
*I called him eleven times from the maternity ward,* I said.
*I sent letters.
I sent copies of the ultrasound.
I wrote by hand.
Every single message was intercepted before he saw it.
That is not a complicated situation.
That is a coordinated effort to separate a father from his children.*
*You were not stable,* she said.
*You were not in a position to—*
*I was in a position to be his wife,* I said.
*And the mother of his children.
And you decided that wasn't sufficient.*
*The Carter name carries obligations—*
*Eleanor.* I kept my voice very quiet.
*I have the document you brought to my hospital room.
I have Margaret's testimony.
I have Olivia's partial admission from this afternoon.
And I have a voicemail Sebastian left me from the gate at O'Hare that you told him I would never want to hear.*
The line was silent.
*I haven't decided yet what to do with all of it,* I said.
*But I want you to understand something clearly.
Those children are Carters whether you recognize them or not.
And if you ever attempt to interfere with Sebastian's relationship with them — through lawyers, through money, through anything — I will use every piece of what I have.*
*Is that a threat?* she said.
*It's a boundary,* I said.
*You should recognize one.
You've been crossing mine for six years.*
I ended the call.
My hands were not shaking this time.
I went to check on the kids.
All three of them were asleep in a pile on Ethan's bed — some negotiation had clearly occurred — Lucas with one arm thrown over Sophie, Ethan flat on his back with his mouth slightly open, looking exactly like the photograph of Sebastian at age four that Margaret had slipped into the tote bag without mentioning.
I stood in the doorway for a long time.
Then I went to the kitchen, made tea, and called my lawyer.
She answered on the second ring.
*Diane,* I said.
*I need to talk to you about something.
It's going to take a while.*
May you like
*I've got time,* she said.
*Start from the beginning.*