Chapter 9: What Andrew Said Before They Took Him

He called me once.
Not from his own phone — that had been seized.
From a number I didn't recognize, two days after the charges were filed.
I almost didn't answer.
I looked at it for four full rings and then picked up because I knew, somehow, that not answering would give him something.
A silence he could shape into whatever story he needed.
"Ava."
His voice was exactly the same.
That was the first thing that struck me.
Fourteen months of learning to read every variation in his tone, and now it was just — his voice.
Familiar and completely stripped of power.
"Andrew," I said.
"I need you to understand something." He spoke carefully.
The attorney's coaching was audible in every syllable.
"What you've done — what Carter has convinced you to do — it's going to destroy things that matter.
The hospital.
The research.
Patients who depend on me."
"The hospital is fine," I said.
"I checked."
A pause.
"You're making a mistake."
"I don't think I am."
"Ava." His voice shifted — just slightly.
The edge I knew.
The one that had always preceded the part where I was supposed to feel afraid.
"I gave you everything.
The apartment.
The access.
The career you have right now exists because of me."
"My career exists because I'm good at my job."
"Carter's company.
Carter's foundation.
Carter's—"
"Andrew." I kept my voice level.
"Your attorney should not have let you make this call."
Silence.
"The fund," he said.
"The Cayman account.
That money was for research.
Real research.
The foundation's oversight process was strangling legitimate science and I found another way.
That's not crjme.
That's innovation."
"That's what you're going with?"
"It's the truth."
"Two point three million dollars in a shell company is not a research fund.
It's an exit plan." I paused.
"How long have you been planning to leave?"
Nothing.
"Were you going to take me with you?" I asked.
"Or was the engagement just part of the access?"
The silence stretched long enough that I had my answer.
"I did care about you," he said finally.
"That part was real."
"I believe you believed that," I said.
"I don't think it changes anything."
"Ava—"
"Don't call me again, Andrew."
I ended the call.
I sat in my sister's kitchen for a long time after that.
She was in the next room.
I could hear her moving around, the small sounds of someone choosing to stay close without intruding.
"He called," I said, loud enough to reach her.
She appeared in the doorway.
"Are you okay?"
I thought about it honestly.
"Yes," I said.
"I think I actually am."
She came and sat across from me.
She didn't say anything wise or comforting or carefully chosen.
She just sat there, present, the way she had always been when I let her be.
"He said he cared about me," I said.
"I think he did.
In whatever way he was capable of."
"That's the worst kind," she said.
"Yes," I agreed.
"It really is."
She reached across the table and covered my hand with hers.
We sat like that for a while.
My phone lit up.
Ethan.
A text, not a call — he always texted when he wasn't sure if I was in a meeting.
*DA confirmed plea negotiations have broken down.
They're going to trial.
Gerald says the financial evidence alone is enough.
You won't have to testify unless you choose to.*
I read it twice.
Then I typed back: *I choose to.*
Three dots appeared.
Then: *I know.*
Then, after a pause: *Are you eating?*
I looked at my sister across the table.
She was watching me with the particular expression she had worn since I was seven years old — the one that said she already knew exactly what was happening and was waiting for me to catch up.
"Ethan wants to know if I'm eating," I said.
She raised an eyebrow.
"And what are you going to tell him?"
I typed back: *My sister made pasta.
I'm fine.*
The three dots again.
Then: *Good.*
Then: *The blue scarf is still on the chair in my office.
I didn't know if you wanted it back.*
I stared at that for a moment.
Then I set the phone down and looked at my sister and felt something move through my chest that was not grief and not relief and not quite hope — but was close enough to all three that I didn't have a better word for it.
"What?" she said.
"Nothing," I said.
"I'll tell you later."
May you like
She looked at me for a long moment.
Then she got up and served the pasta.