Chapter 12: After the Hallway
Three months after the charges were filed, Brandon Foster entered a guilty plea on two of the three counts.
His sentencing was scheduled for spring.
Adrienne Cole called to tell me herself.
"He'll serve time," she said.
"The structured transfers alone carry mandatory minimums.
His attorney negotiated on the insider trading count, but the fraud stands."
"Thank you," I said.
"For all of it."
"Thank you," she said.
"The documents your attorney provided, the cooperation from Ms.
Barrett — this case was built on what people were willing to put on record." A pause.
"Not everyone does that."
"I know," I said.
I was in my office when she called.
The same desk.
The same window.
The parking lot below was full of afternoon light, which was unusual for this time of year, and I noticed it the way you notice things when your mind has finally stopped running through contingencies and can afford to look at something simple.
Lauren called two weeks later.
I answered.
"I heard about the plea," she said.
"Yes."
"I wanted to say — I know it doesn't change what I did.
But I wanted you to know that testifying was the first honest thing I'd done in two years.
And it felt —" She stopped.
"It felt like breathing again."
"I understand that," I said.
"How are you?"
I thought about the question.
Really thought about it.
"I'm good," I said.
"I'm actually good."
A pause.
"I'm glad."
We didn't make plans.
We didn't promise to stay in touch.
But the call ended without the weight that every previous conversation had carried, and that was enough.
My mother came to visit in April.
She stayed for five days.
We cooked together every night — her recipes, my kitchen, the kind of easy companionship that doesn't need to be explained.
On the third evening she poured two glasses of wine and sat down at my kitchen table and looked at me the way she used to when I was small and she was trying to figure out what I needed.
"You seem like yourself," she said.
"I am myself."
"You weren't, for a while.
Even before the divorce.
You were holding something very carefully, all the time, and it looked exhausting."
"It was."
She reached across the table and put her hand over mine.
She didn't say anything else.
She didn't need to.
On the last morning of her visit, I drove her to the airport.
We stood at the departures entrance with her suitcase between us and she hugged me for a long time.
"Call me," she said.
"I always do."
"Call me more."
I laughed.
It came out easy, the way laughing used to before it became something I had to remember to do.
I drove back through the city with the windows down.
It was a cool morning, the kind that smells like rain that hasn't fallen yet.
I had rounds at nine.
A department meeting at eleven.
A patient I'd been following for six weeks who had turned a corner last Thursday and whose chart I had looked at twice that morning already, just because the news was good and good news deserved to be looked at.
I parked in the garage and took the elevator to the third floor and walked through the staff door and into the hallway where, four months ago, Brandon Foster had stood with his diaper bag and his performance and his careful cruelty.
The hallway looked the same.
Fluorescent lights.
Nurses' station.
The faint sound of a children's program playing somewhere in the pediatric wing.
I walked through it the way I walked through it every morning.
Badge on.
Tablet in hand.
Twelve patients and one good chart and a full day ahead.
I didn't look back.
I never had needed to.
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Sometimes the people who try hardest to diminish us end up showing us exactly how much we were never the problem.
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