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Chapter 6: The Apology He Practiced

Sterling was in the kitchen when I returned to the estate.

He had made coffee.

He was standing at the counter in a grey sweater and dark trousers, looking like a man who had spent the night rehearsing how to look like a man who had spent the night thinking.

"Genevieve," he said.

"I'm glad you're back."

I set my bag on the chair by the door.

"Where's Hazel?"

"With Mrs.

Parrish.

She had breakfast.

She's fine." He poured a second cup and held it toward me.

"Sit down.

Please."

I sat.

I took the cup.

He sat across from me and wrapped both hands around his own cup.

It was a careful posture.

Considered.

He had decided on humble before I walked through the door.

"Last night was a disaster," he said.

"I know that.

I owe you an explanation."

"You told me your father was d*ad," I said.

"I know."

"You told me that at dinner.

In Boston.

Before we were married."

"I know." He looked down at the table.

"My father and I had been estranged for years.

He cut me off.

He told me I was no longer his son.

And I — I was ashamed of it.

I was ashamed of what it said about me, and I didn't know how to tell you the truth, so I told you he was gone." He looked up.

"It was wrong.

I've known it was wrong for six years."

It was a good performance.

The shame was calibrated perfectly — enough to seem real, not enough to seem excessive.

"And Hazel?" I said.

"The Tuesday mornings?"

"When I reached out to him fourteen months ago, I wanted to repair things quietly.

I didn't want to disrupt everything before I knew if it was going to work.

I told myself I would tell you once I was sure it was real." He paused.

"I kept waiting for the right moment.

And then the right moment kept not coming."

"He told you I knew," I said.

"You told him I was aware."

Sterling's jaw moved.

"I told him you were comfortable with it.

I was trying to smooth things over on both sides.

I didn't want him to feel like he was a secret."

"But I was the one who didn't know."

"Yes." He met my eyes.

"I handled it badly.

I handled all of it badly.

And I'm sorry."

I looked at him across the table.

The grey sweater.

The careful hands.

The apology that had been written and revised before I walked through the door.

"What did he say to you?" Sterling asked.

"Last night, when you spoke privately."

There it was.

"He was emotional," I said.

"He talked about Hazel.

He said he wished he'd known about her sooner." I wrapped my hands around the cup.

"He apologized for not reaching out to me directly."

Sterling watched my face.

"Did he say anything about — business matters?

The estate?"

"No," I said.

"Should he have?"

A pause.

Fractional.

"No.

I just — he and I have some things to work through.

I wanted to know where his head was."

"He seemed like a man who loves his granddaughter," I said.

Sterling nodded slowly.

The tension in his shoulders dropped by a degree.

He had gotten what he needed.

He believed I had given him nothing useful.

I had given him exactly what Clara told me to give him.

"What about Victoria?" I asked.

He looked up.

"She'll be stepping back," he said.

"From — from our social circle.

It was inappropriate.

I let it go too far and I'm ending it."

"Ending it," I repeated.

"Yes."

I looked at him for a long moment.

He held the look steadily.

He was good at that.

"Okay," I said.

Relief moved through him.

I could see it in the slight release around his eyes.

"I want us to try," he said.

"Genuinely try.

For Hazel."

"I'd like that," I said.

I picked up my cup.

Drank.

Set it down.

"I'm going to check on Hazel," I said, and stood.

He reached across the table and touched my hand.

"Thank you for hearing me out."

I looked at his hand on mine.

I thought about Clara's office.

The timeline on the yellow legal pad.

Sterling's name in the center with lines running out from it in every direction.

"Of course," I said.

I went upstairs.

I sat on the edge of Hazel's bed while she showed me a drawing she had made at breakfast — a tall silver-haired man and a small girl with yellow hair, standing beside what appeared to be a very large cup of hot chocolate.

"That's Grandpa," she said.

"I know," I said.

"It's a wonderful drawing."

My phone buzzed.

A message from Clara.

*Temporary custody order filed.

Financial review authorized.

We found the second account.

Call me at noon.*

I turned the phone face-down on my knee and looked at my daughter's drawing.

May you like

The second account.

I had not known there was a first one.

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