Chapter 6: The Apology He Practiced

Sterling was in the kitchen when I returned to the estate.
He had made coffee.
He was standing at the counter in a grey sweater and dark trousers, looking like a man who had spent the night rehearsing how to look like a man who had spent the night thinking.
"Genevieve," he said.
"I'm glad you're back."
I set my bag on the chair by the door.
"Where's Hazel?"
"With Mrs.
Parrish.
She had breakfast.
She's fine." He poured a second cup and held it toward me.
"Sit down.
Please."
I sat.
I took the cup.
He sat across from me and wrapped both hands around his own cup.
It was a careful posture.
Considered.
He had decided on humble before I walked through the door.
"Last night was a disaster," he said.
"I know that.
I owe you an explanation."
"You told me your father was d*ad," I said.
"I know."
"You told me that at dinner.
In Boston.
Before we were married."
"I know." He looked down at the table.
"My father and I had been estranged for years.
He cut me off.
He told me I was no longer his son.
And I — I was ashamed of it.
I was ashamed of what it said about me, and I didn't know how to tell you the truth, so I told you he was gone." He looked up.
"It was wrong.
I've known it was wrong for six years."
It was a good performance.
The shame was calibrated perfectly — enough to seem real, not enough to seem excessive.
"And Hazel?" I said.
"The Tuesday mornings?"
"When I reached out to him fourteen months ago, I wanted to repair things quietly.
I didn't want to disrupt everything before I knew if it was going to work.
I told myself I would tell you once I was sure it was real." He paused.
"I kept waiting for the right moment.
And then the right moment kept not coming."
"He told you I knew," I said.
"You told him I was aware."
Sterling's jaw moved.
"I told him you were comfortable with it.
I was trying to smooth things over on both sides.
I didn't want him to feel like he was a secret."
"But I was the one who didn't know."
"Yes." He met my eyes.
"I handled it badly.
I handled all of it badly.
And I'm sorry."
I looked at him across the table.
The grey sweater.
The careful hands.
The apology that had been written and revised before I walked through the door.
"What did he say to you?" Sterling asked.
"Last night, when you spoke privately."
There it was.
"He was emotional," I said.
"He talked about Hazel.
He said he wished he'd known about her sooner." I wrapped my hands around the cup.
"He apologized for not reaching out to me directly."
Sterling watched my face.
"Did he say anything about — business matters?
The estate?"
"No," I said.
"Should he have?"
A pause.
Fractional.
"No.
I just — he and I have some things to work through.
I wanted to know where his head was."
"He seemed like a man who loves his granddaughter," I said.
Sterling nodded slowly.
The tension in his shoulders dropped by a degree.
He had gotten what he needed.
He believed I had given him nothing useful.
I had given him exactly what Clara told me to give him.
"What about Victoria?" I asked.
He looked up.
"She'll be stepping back," he said.
"From — from our social circle.
It was inappropriate.
I let it go too far and I'm ending it."
"Ending it," I repeated.
"Yes."
I looked at him for a long moment.
He held the look steadily.
He was good at that.
"Okay," I said.
Relief moved through him.
I could see it in the slight release around his eyes.
"I want us to try," he said.
"Genuinely try.
For Hazel."
"I'd like that," I said.
I picked up my cup.
Drank.
Set it down.
"I'm going to check on Hazel," I said, and stood.
He reached across the table and touched my hand.
"Thank you for hearing me out."
I looked at his hand on mine.
I thought about Clara's office.
The timeline on the yellow legal pad.
Sterling's name in the center with lines running out from it in every direction.
"Of course," I said.
I went upstairs.
I sat on the edge of Hazel's bed while she showed me a drawing she had made at breakfast — a tall silver-haired man and a small girl with yellow hair, standing beside what appeared to be a very large cup of hot chocolate.
"That's Grandpa," she said.
"I know," I said.
"It's a wonderful drawing."
My phone buzzed.
A message from Clara.
*Temporary custody order filed.
Financial review authorized.
We found the second account.
Call me at noon.*
I turned the phone face-down on my knee and looked at my daughter's drawing.
May you like
The second account.
I had not known there was a first one.